- Anna Heuer Hansen, student Integrated Psychotherapy
Everyone responds in their own way to a crisis. Panic, apathy, denial, numbing; the list goes on.
For me, a familiar response is action and managing mode. I quickly asses the new situation, adapt, accept what can't be changed, and just get on with it. Insecurity is scary, and it feels comforting to hold it together and keep going. In that mode it often takes a while for the emotional reality to hit.
My reaction to the current corona crisis was no different. Nothing to do about it, so better just accept and keep moving. I steadied my partner and reassured my friends and family. Changed my schedule and established new routines. And slowly the emotional side of things started arriving. This is unknown territory and the uncertainty makes me anxious. But I am not alone in that. This is bigger than having all my work cancelled indefinitely and physically distancing for an open-ended period of time. It is bigger than my struggle of being far removed from my family while the borders are closing. It is bigger than cancelling my three months travel plans. This is a collective shock, fear, insecurity, and grief.
It has repercussions physically, emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually. It affects all of us and is bigger than anyone of us individually.
In trying to navigate this new reality, I've looked for new ways of connecting. New ways of participating in the world. One of the tools, which has become an anchor to me, is the meditations of Marianne Bentzen. Twice a week we gather online, sometimes up to 100 people, and Marianne guides us with clarity, warmth and presence through a meditation. These moments are of tremendous support to me. Firstly, it puts me in better contact with my own body and my state of being. I feel grounded and centered, and I am much better able to actually feel and sense, and then to self-regulate. Furthermore, it expands me and my connection out to others and to nature. Reminding me that we are all intrinsically connected, and that we are, in essence, part of nature and nature is part of us. We are not separate. We are one. So simple, and so powerful.
It was during one of these moments, that Marianne spoke about the pain and grief in our communities. About how this collective pain had to be held collectively. We have to hold it, together. That was my aha-moment. I was holding it together. Pulling myself together and keeping it in. But this is bigger than me, and bigger than anyone alone, and it has to be shared in community. We need to switch from 'holding it together' to 'holding it, together'. Beautiful, right? At least I think so.
It has served as a great reminder for me the past weeks to open up, share my struggle, share in the struggles of others, and stay connected.
In crises of this magnitude, we need each other. We were never meant to hold it all alone anyway. We hold it, together.
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